2 Months

Wow! It has been a while since I have updated the blog. We have been so busy with work and when we get home all I have wanted to do was snuggle our precious boy. As of now, he is still with us and we are beyond thankful. We have not had any updates but I guess that's not a bad thing.
Sweet boy turned 2 months old on Thursday and tomorrow will be 2 months that we have had him. It's hard to believe it has been two months! I don't really remember what life was like before he came. It is amazing that in two short months our lives can change so drastically. I have always loved my sleep but when I wake up to sweet smiles and tis precious boy "talking" to me, I will take dark circles under my eyes and exhaustion. He truly has made me see life in a different way and has brought me a happiness I didn't know I was missing. He has tested our faith in many ways but ultimately has helped our relationship with God to grow in so many ways. Our marriage is also stronger than ever. We see each other in a way that we had not before and our love has grown tremendously. We still drive each other crazy sometimes but that will never change :)
For now, we will continue to love this sweet boy and enjoy every second with him. As I was uploading  the pictures this crazy boy just rolled over! I love watching him grow and change every day!

 Thinking about life!

 Sweet boy loves kisses!

 He also likes to give them back!

God is Up to Something!

After lots of tears, confusion, and frustration, we are doing much better! Thanks for all of the prayers, support, messages, texts, and phone calls. We appreciate you thinking of us.

As much as our hearts will break when this sweet boy leaves we have had to change our perspective. A friend who is a foster parent really helped us to see it in a new light. She told us that when a child leaves we have fulfilled what they needed and there is another child who needs us more. This really helped me to view the situation differently. This sweet boy will take a piece of my heart with him and I will never forget the joy that he has brought to my life but it's encouraging to know that when he leaves, I have fulfilled my purpose in his life. 

Through my ugly cries that seemed to randomly happen, a lot of prayer occurred. I prayed for guidance, clarity, and time. Two extra days off this week has allowed me more time to continue to snuggle this precious gift. While listening to our worship songs, I was a mess. I was angry because all along I have prayed for my heart to be guarded and it wasn't, I was sad because he has become such a part of my life and I don't want him to leave, I was frustrated because we have been told so many different things and more than all of those feelings, I was just heartbroken. This song by Josh Wilson began to play and I knew God was speaking directly to me.

Isn't our God awesome? He is always with us even when we feel alone. I have heard this song before but it took on a whole new meaning. I was reminded that it's in His time, not ours. We have to keep our faith and continue to trust.

In a previous post, I talked about Satan working against us. I feel this was another attempt to get us down. Although we were sad and upset, we did not give up. God has a plan for us greater than we can even imagine. 

Sweet cousin time!

Snuggling with my chunky monkey…nothing greater!