We are never guaranteed another day in this life and foster care is a continuous reminder of that. Each day is filled with anxiousness awaiting a phone call that could potentially say your baby is going home. Each night I sigh a sigh of relief and thank God for another day with this amazing boy who has stolen my heart. My first Mother's Day was wonderful and one I will never forget. My second Mother's Day was even more wonderful in so many ways. I didn't need to be showered with gifts to have an amazing day, I just needed my sweet boy. I woke up this morning to the sweetest sounds coming from his room and the word that absolutely melts my heart, the greatest title I have every been given, "Momma." I was greeted with a "Hi Momma", a huge smile, and a big good morning hug. We took a nice walk this morning, just the two of us, and enjoyed listening to the birds chirping and the cool morning breeze. We spent the day with family and enjoyed the beautiful weather. Tonight as I was getting him ready for bed we read our favorite book and I thanked him for making today and every day so wonderful. Normally, he goes right to sleep but tonight he was very restless. He was very fussy which is not like him. I went back in the room to check on him and he held his hands up and smiled. He knew that secretly there was nothing this momma wanted more than to get some extra snuggles and rock her baby to sleep. I snuggled him close and smiled as I watched the most precious boy I have ever met drift off to sleep.
I have been given many things in this life that I do not deserve and I am always thankful. He is the greatest gift that I have ever been given and I often wonder "why me?" Why was I chosen to take on this journey? Why was I chosen to be such an incredible boy's momma?" Whatever the reason, I am incredibly thankful. This boy has turned my world upside down and I pray it never goes back to the way it was. This Mother's Day, I was extremely thankful that I did not have to "share" him. Each day he is here means he is one day closer to being mine forever. We are still not there but we are getting closer. As always, please continue to pray.
Extra snuggles with my sweet boy!
He absolutely loves to be outside!
