Growing Too Fast

Our sweet boy had his 9 month check up last week and he is doing great! He is 22 lbs and 9 oz! No wonder my back hurts! He is on the go and there is no slowing him down. He is onto the next thing before I can blink my eyes. He is a ball of energy and so much fun! He constantly has us laughing. He has figured out there are some things he isn't allowed to have and always finds a way to get them with a big mischievous grin on his face.
Our sweet boy is a lion for Halloween and he is the cutest lion  I have ever seen. We had a family birthday party last night and we dressed up as lion tamers. Our beautiful niece was also a lion because she wanted to match our sweet boy. Today was a beautiful day and we spent lots of time outside. We went to the park and spent sometime in our backyard. I love watching my sweet boy explore. He is so curious and I can constantly see the wheels in his head turning.
Our sweet boy is such a blessing. He is such a good baby and makes everyone smile. He has the best personality and makes me so happy. I am so thankful God chose me to be his momma (at least for now).

 These chunky legs are ready to walk!

Best part of my day is snuggling with my boy!

 Sweet chubby hands!

Perfect Weekend

I was off work Thursday and Friday for fall break and I was so thankful for an extended weekend. Thursday was a lazy day and those are always needed! I was surprised Friday morning with a trip to get a massage which was amazing! We were very thankful to have the opportunity spend a lot of time with friends and family while we were off.
Today was wonderful! We went to church and our sweet boy was perfect. We had lunch with friends after and he was quite the entertainer. We played for awhile when we got home and then all 3 of us put on our comfy clothes and snuggled up in bed together. Our sweet boy took an extra long nap and mommy and daddy might have had one too! It was so nice for all of us to be snuggled up together just enjoying our time together. I am sad that our break is over but I know we need to get back into routine. 
Our weekend was so different after having the news from court. We were both so much more relaxed and at ease. We know our sweet boy will be here with us through the holidays and we are so blessed to have that time with him. He is as rotten as they come but I wouldn't have it any other way :)

Our sweet boy looked so handsome in his plaid button up and jeans :)

A Real Update

I finally received some information regarding court. Yay! The worker told me that a paternity test has been ordered (finally) and that neither parent showed up for court on Monday. To me, this speaks volumes about how "invested" they are. We will continue with no visits which is a relief to us! With everything that has happened we did not think visits would start again but you just never know. We have gone almost two months without a visit  and it has been wonderful!
We are so thankful that it seems to be moving in the right direction. We know we still have a long road ahead of us and things can change but for right now we are beyond happy. Our God is an awesome God and we know he's not finished with us yet!

This boy was all smiles when he heard the news :)

Update

I would love to give you an update except I don't really have one. I have emailed and called with no response. Our worker did respond and all he said was he didn't know anything so he is assuming everything is the same. That is not a good enough answer for me so I am hoping the supervisor who attended court will contact me tomorrow. If not, I will continue to call her until she talks to me! Persistence is key!
We appreciate your prayers and everyone who has asked about court. We are praying for good news tomorrow!!!

Please Pray

Court is tomorrow! Ugh I hate court days! We ask that you pray for clarity for everyone involved and our sweet boy is the priority. Through all of the craziness one of the workers has quit so someone new will be representing the case in court and we pray they have all of the necessary information.

We have had a wonderful weekend with our sweet boy. Full of laughs, snuggles, and fun! He is growing so quickly and he brings so much happiness to our life. The thought crossed my mind tonight as I was rocking him, what if I don't have many more days of doing this? He is ours in every meaning of the word except he truly isn't "ours." We could be told he is going home and that would be it, no more snuggles, no more giggles, no more kisses, no more anything. It makes me sick to even type that. I just truly cannot imagine life without him but I know that I have to try my best to be prepared for anything. God knows our hearts and knows our desires. We would love more than anything to be his forever mama and dada. It has been almost 9 months since we laid eyes on a handsome 6 pound 2 ounce baby boy that has become our everything. That day was filled with so many emotions but the greatest emotion was love. I had never loved someone in the way that I was immediately in love with him. I knew from the moment I saw him my life would never be the same. I had always wanted to be a mama but in that instant I became a mama. My days revolve around him and I wouldn't have it any other way. 

Chaos would be a great way to describe the past few weeks with the case and we pray that everything is settled very soon. Tomorrow is a big day and it could go several different ways. We know that God is in control and when we hand everything over to Him great things happen. We ask that you pray for us and strength through the day. I am always waiting on pins and needles and we may have to wait until Tuesday for information. More than anything we ask that you pray for our sweet boy and his wellbeing. I will update when we receive information!`

Faith and Hope

Two weeks have passed since I last posted a new blog. We now have 6 teeth, say dada, and moves so quickly! I had a lot of special quality time with my boy yesterday. I snuggled him while he napped, we sat on the swing and just listened to the birds and talked, and we took a walk through the neighborhood. It was so nice to be able to have that time with him and to clear my head. Court is this morning regarding visitation and we are praying for everyone involved. It has been so nice not having visits and we are a little on edge wondering what will happen today. We know it's in God's hands and he will protect us all.

In just a few weeks "big court" will be occurring and that is always a rough time for us. Things have been so crazy that we never feel prepared. We are trusting and having faith. He fits in our family perfectly and life without him doesn't seem possible. It's hard to not get caught up in thinking about first Christmas, first birthday, and all of the other major events that will be happening. I can't imagine him not being here but I know I have to try my best to be prepared for everything. 

We ask that you continue to pray for all of us. Pray a special prayer this morning for court and for the well being of our sweet boy. 

Where Has the Time Gone?

Our sweet boy turned 8 months old on Saturday and he ended 7 months with a bang! He now has 3 teeth and decided on Friday he was going to crawl! He had been inch worming around but he has finally figured it out. He is all over and very fast!  He is such a happy boy and jabbers nonstop. We have heard a few of what we think are dadas and mamas but he always stops before we can really decide. He is also pulling himself up and I need time to slow down!
Our big boy needed new clothes for fall so we went shopping this weekend. He was wonderful going in and out of stores and going out to dinner. Yesterday we had a lazy day and it was great. We stayed in our jams and played. He loves to "hide" which is lots of fun. He laughs so hard and it fills my heart with joy. He has been very snuggly and I could sit all day and snuggle him up.
A lot has happened in this case recently and we are thankful to see God at work. Court is a month away and we know ultimately the judge makes the decision. This has not worked in our favor before but our workers have assured me they are trying. We love our sweet boy more than we knew possible and I cannot imagine not having him in my life. It is out of our hands and we know that. We will enjoy our time as a family and continue to pray that God's will be done.

What's in here mama?