Tomorrow

As I am writing this I am looking at toys on the floor, baskets of laundry waiting to be put away, I know there are dishes waiting to be cleaned  but all I am worried about is this precious boy in my arms sleeping.  I know he should be in his bed but this momma is struggling and everything feels right when he is in my arms. Tomorrow is the first day of school for me. Tomorrow  all of the mess will still be here but my boy  will not be in my arms snuggled. We have been transitioning to daycare and he has done awesome. I know he is loved and they take great care of him but I like him right here with me. I know that one day my sweet boy won't want to be snuggled and I want to soak up every single second I can.
The situation is still crazy and an important date has come and gone. This date would determine a lot but  the person did not follow through. Now everything is up to  someone else and I hope they are aware of the importance. I know this is vague and I apologize for not being able to disclose more. We ask for your continued prayers.

What Would You Do?

I looked at the clock this morning and panicked because I didn't hear our sweet boy. I searched frantically for the monitor to check on him and then I remembered...he isn't here. My heart instantly sank as I remembered I won't get my morning snuggles and my day won't be started with his sweet smiles. I tossed and turned last night wondering if he was ok . I was so tired but  my mind wouldn't rest. I started praying because I knew God was with our sweet boy and would give me the strength I needed. Our God is truly an awesome God!
Each time we think we cannot be surprised anymore something happens to change our minds. I am constantly asking "What would you do?" I have continued to ask that question and take each answer to heart and truly consider everything I am told but I have started asking, "What would I want someone to do for me?" I have had to put myself in our sweet boy's position and think about my future and think about what I would have wanted someone to do for me. This sweet boy is helpless and I have to be his voice. I have to fight for him, his rights, and what's best. That's what I would want someone to do for me. I don't ever want to look back and think I could have done more. This sweet boy deserves the world and while he is with me I will make sure  he has it.
School will be starting soon and I am trying to enjoy every single second I can. I am so sad thinking about not spending every day with him. We have been so blessed to have the summer together and I am so thankful we have had so much time together. I love this sweet boy more than I ever knew I could love someone. I see God working in our situation daily and I know he isn't finished with us yet!
Keep Praying!